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| Shit.
Shit.
and shit.
I feel like if ever I suddenly disappeared, no one would miss me.
If ever I suddenly died, no one would cry.
I feel like I have no value.
To some people that's ok, but to me, it's important to have value. So that when i do suddenly disappear, or die, I could just say FUCK YOU. I mattered to the world.
tss. Sounds like i'm just being bitter though.
Shit.
Shit.
And
Shit.
Why you have to be so cruel to me... | comment: 3 comments or go ahead   |
| peace.
peace within myself - my heart and soul...
comfort in my own skin, life, and being...
security.
independently stable.
and....
a heart that doesn't hold grudges.
i want to be completely peaceful, and confident. Just to be completely relaxed being confused with all of life's shitty surprises.
ohmmmmmmmmm......
happy birthday to meeee!!!! :) | | comment: 2 comments or go ahead |
| o kay lambing ng simoy ng gabi
di mo ba naririnig
mga bulong nila'y nakakabingi
hinahanap ka
nasa'n ka?
panaginip ba
may narinig akong sipol
pabigla akong tumingin
akala ko ikaw
o, alaala...
ngiti mo'y aking nakita
napangiti din ako
lumbay nawalay
sa alaala, sa alaala
hanggang sa muli. | | comment: go ahead |
| Making the so called "bad" sound so good. Or at least right.
On Insecurity...
"Insecurity was what would keep you always in your innocence." -- Sally Kirkland
"Each one of us requires the spur of insecurity to force us to do our best." -- Harold W. Dodds
"Break a habit. Do something that makes you feel insecure." -- Piero Ferrucci
On Jealousy...
"He that is not jealous is not inlove." -- St. Augustine
On Failure...
"Failure is the foundation of success, and the means by which it is achieved." -- Lao Tzu
On Frustration...
"Don't tell your problems to people: eighty percent don't care; and the other twenty percent are glad you have them." -- Lou Holtz
"People need trouble -- a little frustration to sharpen the spirit on, toughen it. Artists do; I don't mean you need to live in a rat hole or gutter, but you have to learn fortitude, endurance. Only vegetables are happy." -- William Faulkner
On Loneliness...
"Your loneliness may spur you into finding something to live for, great enough to die for." -- Dag Hammarskjold
"To dare to live alone is the rarest courage; since there are many who had rather meet their bitterest enemy in the field, than their own hearts in their closet." -- Charles Caleb Colton
So go be insecure! Go be jealous! Go on and fail! Go be frustrated! Go be lonely!...
"It is not our pains that define us, rather the days after them."
The last one's from me. Bottom line, it's normal to feel like shit.
(Oh, crap.) | | comment: go ahead |
| "You should know (you should know)
What it's like (what it's like)
When it hurts (when it hurts)
'Cause it feels so right..."
Forgive me... but i really really like this song. it makes me *kilig* smile.
Ok, so i'm not sorry then. :)
haha,let's go paris, good luck in jail.
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| i'm feeling something different....
couldn't quite put a finger on it...
surprisingly...
everything's calm.
hmm. | | comment: go ahead |
| My first open water dive in Anilao. (click na lang para lumaki)
 
My only picture in the water in actual gear. Hmm, medyo malayo....... let's zoom in a bit. "Hi!":)
  
My buddy Deane. (Thanks sa pictures!) ...And that's Gail (Deane's cousin), Deane, our instructor, Jojo, at the back, and me.
Uuh, yan lang e. No one had an underwater camera with them. Next time. :)
Can't wait to dive again. Can't wait to have my own equipment. Can't wait to dive again. and again, and again....
Can't wait to afford it.
hohum. | | comment: go ahead |
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| minsan naisip ko
sana gago na lang ako
baka mas madaling
yumaman
umasenso
makalimot
malasing
mangalay
at
hindi masaktan
sana gago na lang ako
para hindi ako gaguhin
para ako yung manggagago.
Exactly one month til I turn 26. 26!!! Who would've known. When I turn 26, I want to shut people up. hehe;p
or punch someone who pissed me off.
or be really rude and heartless to somone who pissed me off.
ugh.
so pathetically cinematic.
so dumb.
in a bit of a foul mood. have my period. sudden gloom lures over my field work prospects. my plans. my future. all in my head, of course. duh. i hate periods. i hate having emotional episodes sprouting about in my otherwise peaceful existence!!! enough, Lord! i've been good?? help.
...just another manic monday....always gets me down. | | comment: go ahead |
| Weeeeyooooooo!
HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY, RICHELLE ANN V. VIBAL. :) (richelle ann v vibaaal, richelle ann v vibaaaal...hihihi!)
i just had to post these.....
  
...the chin down pose that I still make you do to make me laugh.. :D CLASSIC.
....the little boy in China (with the longest buntot!)......:D
AND.......
.... Pink fluff.:) :) :) When life was just so simple and free. :) Still is, little poop. it still is. :) Ang ganda ng tingin mo sa langit niyan.. May nakita ka sigurong cherubims. ;-)
Happy birthday, bftte!!! I hope that there will be no more birthdays we will celebrate apart! blegh. para naman masaya! tsk.
K, i wish you good health, a peaceful heart, a brillant career, and....... an organized self. hihi!
OH, AND THE SLIM, FIT FIGURE YOU'VE ALWAYS DREAMED OF!! ;-)
Happy birthday!!!! I love you!
PS
Check your Flickr if you haven't yet. :) :) :) | | comment: go ahead |
| After my summer clean-up........
 
This side of the bed is WAY neater now. :) .....PWEDE!!!
   
And I finally let go of my 18year old stallion. ....it's neater than it looks, but hey, it's a breathing room.
On to my visible black roots!.....
(WARNING: PICTURE NG SARILI)
      
Roots!! But at least my hair length has grown a bit already! Yup, that's me waiting for Sophie. haha! final pose: YEEEEEEEEZ!!!! Hihihihi! Happy May 1st! ;p PS. THAT'S LOLA's SHIRT!!!:D vintage yan, vintage.
And after ukay-ing with Sophie.... (aba bumili ako!)
 Photo by Tibuy.
My first skinny pants!! hihihi!=D and a purple shirt with an aqua dog. Both fit well kaya ko binili. P33.33333 yung pants, yung shirt P100. (Pants was under the 3 for 100 kasi)
And on to my ONLY photo in a wet suit. (May tatlo pa pero wala pa kong kopya.)
 In Scuba World, Wilson. Anilao pictures still with Deanne.
Mukha akong lasing na manas. (may di pa naliligo...)
But that's it for now, cyber world..... shalom. | | comment: go ahead |
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